Letter 43

21 December 2015

Dear C,

What a fantastic news!!! I mean my heart sings with joy today!

I spoke to my mum and she has confirmed that you are spending Christmas at home! I am so fucking happy! Best Xmas present. And not only this! She told me that doctors also confirmed that you are free of cancer now! OMG! Bone marrow transplant went well and you are fine...

Even now, when I'm writing these words I am welling up...

David was very pleased when I told him about it. Even Jose shouted "hell yes!" when I said to him about you. Jose told me many times that our story is like a movie. He couldn't believe that all these things happened to us. And everything at the same time.

Anyway, I am so so happy you will be out of the hospital for Xmas and with your family and friends.

And it looks like my deal with Universe, Karma, God - whatever was there to hear my prayer out in that courtroom - has worked! You are healthy now! I would like to take this opportunity here and thank whoever or whatever made it possible. Thank you.

You know that I am not religious, but today for the first time in my life I believe in miracles baby. I do.

Ok, I understand there is a long way now for you to recover and I am sure there will be loads of check-ups at the hospital in the future and that you will have to be very careful with your health now, but that bloody cancer is gone now! And I pray it is for good!

I painted today a small acrylic piece called "Dance Me" I was not sure what I was doing at all, I just grabbed a brush and some acrylic paints that were available and I did this.

I kinda like it and so did people in my class. Jose told me that it is so me in this painting. Not sure what it meant, but it's funny that people think I have my own style of painting... Imagine! Just a few months ago I didn't even know I could paint at all... How everything can change in a second...

They cancelled afternoon activities as someone got stabbed in one of the workshops here. The ambulance was called and I know they are doing extreme deep searches in all the cells here to see if anyone else has any homemade weapons. So soon my cell will be upside down. I hate when they do it.

But today it doesn't bother me at all. I am too happy to be thinking about it.

I just feel that overwhelming joy running through my veins. You are cancer free baby!

Let me finish now C. I am gonna get ready for that cell search (I have 3 too many pens in my cell so I am going to put them together with the coloured pencils that someone gave me - maybe they won't notice).

I love you. I miss you.

Forever yours, Sebastian